The Reason I Haven’t Posted

So, having a mental illness sucks. Majorly. It sucks like a raging tornado, like a tsunami sucks life from an island, like a queen sucks a nine-inch cock. Mental. Illness. Sucks.

And the suckiness of mental illness is why I haven’t been keeping up with my blog, despite having promised myself that I was going to invest in my writing and my blog and my everything else.  But such are the ways of manic episodes.  I thought I could keep up with this and my parents and my friends and my life and Twitter and everything else I need to keep up with.  And then I cycled.  Again.  And I realized I can’t be funny all the time, no matter how much I want to, because that’s not where my talent lies.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not completely “Emo” all the time.  There are two sides of me and, starting now, this is going to be where the two sides of me merge, where I can finally let out everything, be it the sappy “I feel like total shit today, blahblahblah’s” or the funny exploding people posts, or anything in between.  It’s my blog, so it’s gonna be about me and every part of me.  Besides, how can I grow as a writer if I don’t grow as a person?

Besides, blogging out all my angst on MySpace makes me feel like an immature adolescent douchebag, and I am far from adolescence.  Douchebaggery I’m in with both feet.  I’m good at it, and I’m not gonna stop doing one of the few things I actually have a talent for.

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